Thursday, February 15, 2018

An un-apology

A while back I posted about some of the 'flip side' emotions and accompanying questions that have also arisen from this gratitude practice . . .

Doubt: Will I be able to keep up this practice, or am I just deluding myself?

Self-consciousness: When I express gratefulness, do people think I am bragging or trying to flaunt some 'perfect life'? 

Fear: Will my fledgling gratitude be tested in a way I will not be able to handle? Will I alienate people I care about?

For starters, I know that if someone doesn't like or is annoyed by these posts, they don't have to read them. But we all know rejection can hurt, and often makes us reevaluate what we're doing.

With my own reevaluation complete, I know in my heart of hearts that developing this gratitude practice is the right thing to do. I also know that, though people may roll their eyes, posting often is the only way I will stay accountable. I guess that makes the patience and tolerance of others yet another thing to be grateful for! 😊

So, this is in essence a "Sorry, not sorry" post. Looking back, the gratitude practices I have tried to develop in the past were destined to fail. Now that I am actually doing it, my world is changing for the better. And I have a feeling that as I continue on this journey, there will be no going back.
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Have you succeeded in or attempted developing a gratitude practice? What worked/didn't work for you?
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This post is part of the daily gratitude practice I am working to develop during 2018. You can read all about it at ByChanceBuddhism!
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May all beings be happy!

Wednesday, February 14, 2018

Lactation consultants!

First of all, Happy Valentine's Day! Of course, what could be more in the sprit than breastfeeding and those who make it their life's work?! 😂

Yeah, I know, not really. But just hear me out. It was on this day a year ago that Kleiner and I were struggling. The situation was not dire, but things were not great. I was ready to give up. 

Enter Katie, the best lactation consultant we could have had. She listened carefully to our issues and showed me simple techniques that made all the difference. When I opened up about some recent (unpleasant) experiences, she empathized. 

Fast forward to now, it is hard to believe how vulnerable I felt (and was!) at that point in time. I am glad we were guided by such a capable person- something I would hope for every new mom. 

I know that the world would not have ended if we had switched to formula, and that this is a viable (yay, science!) and beneficial option that many families choose. But I am very grateful for the support and guidance I received at this pivotal time in my (and my baby's) life. 


What are you grateful for this Valentine's Day? 💗
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This post is part of the daily gratitude practice I am working to develop during 2018. You can read all about it at ByChanceBuddhism!
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May all beings be happy! 

Tuesday, February 13, 2018

10,000+

Today I am grateful that I was able make it to my goal of 10,000+ steps for two days in a row. Between the frigid weather and a little one at home it is not always easy! 


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This post is part of the daily gratitude practice I am working to develop during 2018. You can read all about it at ByChanceBuddhism!
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May all beings be happy!

Saturday, February 10, 2018

Not really feeling it

Today was one of those dark, rainy, miserable days. I don't know if that is what put me in a sour mood this evening, but I am really not feeling this right now. Even so I still had some grateful moments throughout the day, but was overall definitely not in the best frame of mind. 

Beyond the weather, I think I am suffering from a little too much routine. I continue to look forward to the weekend to spend a little more time with my husband, but the days just blur together into a (seemingly) endless loop. Feeling like day-to-day I accomplish nothing important is an effective recipe for frustration and discouragement.

But you know what? All this is okay. Like I said in my first gratitude post, the purpose of developing this practice in not to force myself to be grateful. Days (and emotions!) like these are going to happen, and it is my job to learn how to deal with them effectively. It is called a 'practice' for a reason! 

If I am grateful for anything today, it is that gratitude was able to shine through, even in the presence of substantial negativity. With that, I conclude with a picture of a notebook I saw in Target- which has now become especially relevant. Enjoy 😊  


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This post is part of the daily gratitude practice I am working to develop during 2018. You can read all about it at ByChanceBuddhism!
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May all beings be happy!

Friday, February 9, 2018

A bit overwhelmed

One thing I realized soon after embarking on this gratitude journey was it would be difficult, but for different reasons than I had originally thought. Instead of tiredness, procrastination, and negative emotions getting in the way, I am now more concerned with the magnitude of the endeavor.  

Put simply, there is just *so much* to be grateful for! 

So far, I have written quite a few posts about the 'best things' in life; the little things make us smile. I have also written several posts about loved ones, those who have touched and brought tremendous joy to my life (and the lives of many others). 

Taking a step back, it is fair to say I feel completely overwhelmed (in a good way!).  It is like I have just discovered a peaceful new ocean, and, in my efforts to explore it, have only just viewed a few shimmering drops in the palm of my hand.


I am so thankful for all the wonderful people and things in my life, and will continue my quest to express the gratitude I feel towards them to the best of my ability.
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This post is part of the daily gratitude practice I am working to develop during 2018. You can read all about it at ByChanceBuddhism!
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May all beings be happy!